New Year-New Gigi

Its been awhile... I hope to blog more this year coming. I have gotten very Lazy about it. I promised a person I know that I would try and blog more (this person likes to read my blogs? who knew?)

Tribute to Bailey - 01/27/2003 to 03/28/2013

                                                              "My Best Friend Bailey "

                                                

 

On Friday, March 28th I had to put down my best friend "Bailey". He had  been suffering for a while. He contracted some kind of aging disease which made him age very quickly in 6 month. He wasn't in any kind of pain I believe but he could no longer Jump, Run, Walk, and even unable to eat that well.

 

This was the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. I cried and cried for days before and days after. The pain of doing this is something I had never felt before, it was so bad. The worst was walking back into my home and he wasn't there. I actually fell to my knees when I came in the door that day..I was just devastated..There was nothing like coming home to that face jumping up at you and wanting you to pick him up and just sooooo excited to see me. I don't know anyone in my life that  has ever jumped for joy to see me..lol...

 

This dog was my best friend. We did everything together...Weekends belonged to him and I and Bailey knew it...Sundays I would get up early, put my laundry in and Bailey and I would take a ride to Starbucks. The girls in Starbucks all new him very well and always gathered around the window to see him, and he loved it ... Bailey loved sticking his head out the window as I drove, (but I don't know too many dogs that doesn't like it) We would run to publix and I would park as close to the door as much as I could so that Bailey could see me go in and when I came out I would click my door clicker and UP POPPED his little head with such joy to see me coming out of the store. That just cracked me up every time...lol

 

So here it is the 3rd week since he has gone and I still miss him like it was the day of his passing... I get better and better but I have had days that haven't been that good..I still have all of his food, toys, etc ... I still have his little jacket hanging on the closet door which I should remove but I love seeing it there.

 

When Bailey was getting really bad and could no longer jump to see me anymore by the door because he could hardly walk I would come home and swoop him up and turn on the music and dance with him. He loved it, he would put his head on my shoulder as we danced...I turned on the song "Hey Ho" which is by a group called the "Lummineers" the chorus went "I belong to you and you belong to me into my sweetheart is he..and that is just how I felt. No one will every replace Bailey, the love that I had for this dog was so big that he will never be forgotten. As the famous poem said "I will meet you in Rainbow Bridge on the north side of Heaven" and I will be so happy to see him. In the mean time I believe that my mom is taking good care of Bailey until I see them both again!!

 

                                                                       "I love you Bailey"

 

I hate Passwords...

I have not been on in awhile to post anything because Blogger changed all their settings and forgot to tell me. After alot of searching, (Alot) I finally figured out how to get in to my own Blog...Like I said "I hate Passwords"...


Life is for me these days is "Leaving on the edge" because I don't know what will come day to day. It's scary living like this but I guess I have to until things get better for me.


I saw a CNN News post this morning and it said the Poverty levels are just about as low as they have ever been, and I believe this. Years ago I wouldn't have been afraid to go out on my own and live in a apartment by myself...now...? It scares me to death, and I know I am going to have to do this very soon. I don't make what I use to make for one and I also can not keep up with the prices going up and up on just about everything.


I remember driving to NJ about 7-8 years ago for Thanksgiving and when I stopped in Virginia for Gas it was actually .99cents a gallon, the lowest I had ever seen...Now we are between almost $4-5 a gallon. Who is running this country?


So, yes I am scared to death. I am so scared of the "Unknown" and there is nothing I can do about it. I have to take care of myself and my Bailey...He will be so scared moving into another house, I know it. He really only knows the house he is in now. Bailey was only 8 months old when I bought the house, now he is 9 years old...


BUT as they say, life goes on....so now that I can get into my blogger again, I can keep updated with my comings and goings....lol..