My My My....How Long?

Wow, its been almost a year since I wrote in my blog...Not many read it but it  still gives me comfort to share my thoughts, and experiences on here....but I can't believe its been almost a year since I have...

Well, I am trying to start "fresh" I am so tired of having negative things happen to me in my life (not they that stopped) and talking about it in my blog and my journals. So what I did with my journals is throw them all away....I know - I know- your probably saying
"what the Hell"? , those are my thoughts and feelings since I started in 2001....I went through them and each Journal is dedicated to my daughter to have after I go...Why do I want her to know how much it hurt when my parents died? she was there, she knew. Or why do I want her to know how much I was hurt by Alvaro? She was there also...Cassandra and I are close as can be and I don't want to leave her journals of hurt, anger and sadness...I have started another journal and I call it "My New Journey"...This will be for Cassandra but it will have happy thoughts, some sad thoughts, meaningful sayings, etc. It will still be a journal that I share my thoughts and actions but it won't be one that will show SO MUCH negativity. Do I want my daughter and Grandson to remember "Gigi" that way? No...... I am going to really think about what I am putting in my Journal from now on..I will make sure I think it thru before I write it...so far so good. I started this back in February of this year and I am really loving it...Its not full of anger and hurt anymore...Of course I will have an occasional "bad day" in the book, but just not so many as I did in the other Journals...I think I was only writing my bad days for awhile there...Bad things are still going to happen, they happen to all of us. But I want to start enjoying the "Good Things" in life...and writing them down for Cassandra and Ayden to see...I want it to be a Journal (s) of Love...to be passed down to the ones I  love.......