Coloring...is my passion

For the past 4-5 months now during my "Down Time" I have fallen into the art of coloring..it is so relaxing for me. I could sit in my room for hours every night and color...I do have alot of books that I color in (They are not the kids coloring books, more adult having to do with history, etc)

I have fallen in love coloring the Disney Giant coloring sheets having to do with alot of the Characters..I love it!...As you can see from the pictures below I am in the middle of coloring the Disney Princesses...I find them to be my favorite because of the different colors I can use on all of them... I use Pencils, not crayons and I find the pencils to be so much easier because you see the picture really come "Alive" so much "Sharper" looking... There are many nights now that I look at the clock and it's 8:00pm and then I look up again and it's midnight...I love it so much because it is so relaxing for me especially when I have had a stressful day...

POWER..why do people feel they need to have it?

Why do so many people feel that they need to have the "Power" ? and if it's not their idea it's no idea? Why do people need to feel so "Superior" to others? I don't get it?

Never in my life did I ever want to "Be in Charge" it's not in my character to be that way, and I am grateful for that. Everyone is different, I get that...some people work hard to get where they are in life as do I and it's just part of every one's human nature to br better...but at who's expense? That is the real question..


For instance take my daughter (Please..LOL, just kidding) she will argue with me until she is blue in the face because she knows she is right....and when she sees that I am right she will brush it off like she says "Whatever"..and she is just one example .It's funny sometimes, but I just feel like I have been dealing with this kind of person my whole life...no matter where I go...This is why I guess I am who I am and"GOOD FOR ME" because I am happy being "Me" and I don't feel like I need to be "Better" or Above" anyone...

Believe me I am the first person to admit that if someone likes your ideas and your comments you feel sooooooo good about yourself..But then again I don't have the "NEED" for it at all....

I am happy with who I am most of the time. For a very long time I was not happy but I have just seen so many people with the attitudes of being "Superior"and I wonder if their really happy? and if being "Superior" makes them happy then I say go for it...BUT Just think about the people your taking it out on....do they need to be treated like that to make YOU feel good?

Think about it..............

Jinx myself....

Well, it's a new Year, 2010...a new start....will it be good? or will it be bad? For the past 2 years I have been afraid of the New year...because for the last couple of years I have not had the best of times...But starting out this year I have been very VERY cautious...I take nothing for Grant it..

It's only been 8 days into the new year and a couple of things have come my way that are actually good..(.shhhhh...I didn't really say that) One is the other day I came home and on my steps was a FedEx addressed to me and it said it was from "Wells Fargo" my mortgage company and in it was a bunch of paper work offering me a small modification on my payments which I have been asking for....FOR THE PAST YEAR...the only problem is that the payments are still very high, they only dropped the payments by $200.00 a month and paying $1,614.00 is way to much for me because I also pay HOA of $250.00 ...This paperwork needs to be filled out and mailed in with in 10 days and my first payment will be March 1st 2010. If this payment was a little bit less I would be thrilled by now...when I called the woman told me to sign the paperwork and send it in along with a long explanation as to why you feel the payments won't work out and see if they send me another modification. The woman said if they don't then I have at least until March 1st to make a payment and keep asking for lower amounts...so this process seems alot better then what I was going through before...I was shocked to receive this. I really thought by now the house would be in total foreclose. I thought that is why I had not heard anything from them since November, 2009...so it was a wonderful surprise...in a small way!

My second good news of the year so far is ....My air-conditioning broke in my car back in November and I have been racking my brain to find the $$ to fix it because I have been very tight with $$ because of Christmas and the Good Faith Mortgage payments....I had to find something in my glove department in my car and I pulled out my Carmax information and right on the front I see a date of June 6, 2012...and I thought for a moment what is this? and it suddenly came to me that for the first time in my life I had bought the extra Service coverage for my car....I was floored...I had totally forgotten about it..I pulled out the coverage form and low and behold my Air-conditioning is COVERED...woooo woooo. So all I have to do is call Carmax and make an Appt....

So, as you can see I really don't want to Jinx myself by saying " This will be a Great Year for me" because who knows? Like I said it is only 8 days into the year....

So, I guess it will just go "day by day" for me....it's better that way!