Well I turned 50 yesterday, February 10Th and to me it was just another Birthday. I don't feel any different. But the 4oth didn't bother me either. Maybe turning 60 might bother me a little but not to much. 
When Cassandra was little I use to think "Well when she turns 20 years old I will be 41 years of age where will I be?" I thought like that on every Birthday she had. I never would have thought the way we are now. I expected her to be either Married or having a Great career of some kind, but that is what every single mother in the world thinks of their daughters, it is true!. I have very happy with the way things are as I turn 50. The only one problem is me being out of work, but otherwise it's a good life. Cassandra has come a very long way since she had Ayden, in fact she showed me how far she has come by giving me a wonderful 50th Birthday, with the party, gifts and Dinner on my real Birthday. I never thought I would see this, my daughter seems to have matured..FINALLY! I always took care of everything for Cassandra so alot of this was my fault. I should have given her more responsible when she was younger, but I would not have changed a thing. I am happy with her, Ayden and my life. Once I find out "Where I should be" in the job market I think things will get better.
I also don't feel 5o physically. My girlfriend Resa was showing her age at 40, you know everything ached, everything was "Too much" for her age. But I really believe "You are how you feel" and I am not going to grow older than I am.....Yes, I and as long as I am happy with it nothing or no one else matters.wish I could be a "Skinny Minnie" or have a younger looking face but I am what I am
The best part of my 50th was my party that Cassandra threw for me, I had alot of good friends come and I received a bunch of beautiful gifts and I am sharing just a few with you below..
Here is the beautiful bouquet of flowers I received from AnneFlowers always make you feel good!
These are 2 gifts I received from Joyce, the "K" was handmade by Joyce
This is a gorgeous Handmade Irish Shawl given to me by my Brother Matt.
