Happy Birthday Bailey....

Today is my Bailey's 6th Birthday. It was six years ago that he was born "for" me. This little dog is one of the most important things in my life. Bailey loves me unconditionally, to him I have no faults..to him, I am his world. That is a feeling that is very hard to describe unless you have a dog or really any animal that you love.

For his birthday we bought a small Carvel cake. Ayden loves to blow out the candles for him. Ayden also offered to have 2 pieces of cake, one for him and he would also eat Bailey's piece but assured him that Bailey has no problem eating his cake by himself. So here is a photo of my two favorite guys celebrating ...

Always go with your instinc..

I know now that even if I get a job I need to follow my first instinct. I had a instinct at JFK when we got a New VP, of H.R..I knew she was close with one of my co-workers and I just had a feeling there would be "Trouble" Down the road. I did have concerns about this because the other employee had the same title as me. So I went to our new VP with my concerns and her answer to me with a big smile on her face said "Karen, as long as I am working here you will always be employed here at JFK" Now that I think of that moment I knew it wasn't true, she was just pacifying me...I knew it then but I did nothing about it. I still can't get over how they let me go, not even trying to give me a different position. That is what is so bothersome to me still. I could understand giving me a different position with a little less pay but to go to be unemployed is just wrong. I am a H.R person and I know how H.R Works, their motto is "H.R Can Do what ever they want" and I saw it for myself for many many years. To this day I believe me Director, VP,and even my co-workers could have found something else for me with in the HCA family. I was tossed out like a bad apple. But I know I am not a bad apple because that is one thing I have instilled in me, "Great Work Ethics" and that is something they can't take away from me. My father was so proud of me for this so I know I am doing well. This was instilled in me by my father and his father before him.

This whole experience has taught me so much. I learned who my friends really are, who really cares about me, and most of all who I can trust. I am very limited on who I trust now. I can't believe how many people at the hospital I knew and only a select few have kept in touch. I spoke to some of these people every single day of my life (Work Time Anyway). I feel so betrayed by that Hospital. I made my mark there and they just erase it like it was never there. They took my fellow co-worker as a replacement for me within a blink of the eye. This employee always had it out for me yet not one of my co-workers ever did anything about it, not one. If anything they became more friendly with her. I never told any of them this because stupid me did not want to hurt their feelings, how stupid am I? Ever since that certain employee came in to our department there has been changes, not good ones either, and not nice ones. Some of my co-workers were afraid of which she knew and enjoyed every single minute of it. Why did She do that? I guess because she could. I worked with this certain employee for a good couple of years, when she worked in the hospital it self her and I got along very well, she even ate lunch with us in the cafeteria once in a while. I could even go over to her office and sit and talk to her about any subject. Then she came over to our office and from then on is when she started treating me unfairly. I have my ideas as to what happen but I guess it just doesn't matter anymore. Why am I still dwelling on this,? Because I have so much time on my hands, I can't think of anything else then where I was, not where I am going. Hopefully that will change soon and then I can get into what ever "New Adventure" I get,.and this won't bother me anymore.

Bottom line here, I ended up trusting the wrong people. That is my worst trait about myself, I trust in too many people. I trust that they will watch out for me but Bottom Line you can only trust your self, you can only look out for yourself, and you always need to be aware of the "Back Stabbers" in life because they are the ones that win, I learned so much about my fellow co-workers and I am just going to leave it at that......... So I hope to write in my next blog soon that I have a New adventure in my life and I hope I can tell you all about it!!!

What to say?????????????

I just have rack my brain to see what I could write about since my last blog, which at least 2 weeks ago and I can't think of a thing to say. I have a daily regimen of getting up, getting Ayden
ready for school, coming home and making more coffee (Unless I treat myself to Starbucks). After that I more or less get on the computer for the day, looking up jobs, answering emails, etc.

I have taken a day or two off to go to the movies like I did Friday because it is driving me crazy to sit around worrying about where my next paycheck is going to come from.

I did have a interview on Thursday with a company affiliated with my old one but it is a drive. They said they would make a decision by the end of the week which was yesterday. I am just thinking that they are waiting until Monday, right? I did have another company call me which I called back and they called back when I was at the movie on Friday, so we are playing phone tag.

But really I am just bored, I am so not the "Stay at home Mom" I just can't do it. I am turning 50 this year and I always thought I would be celebrating that with my co-workers at JFK but that is not going to happen. I do not have a hard time turning 50, it doesn't bother me, what bothers me is turning 50 and not having a job, that scares me.'

I have to have faith that there is a reason for everything that is happening and I have to have faith that God will show me the way. I just pray it's soon...

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