Always go with your instinc..

I know now that even if I get a job I need to follow my first instinct. I had a instinct at JFK when we got a New VP, of H.R..I knew she was close with one of my co-workers and I just had a feeling there would be "Trouble" Down the road. I did have concerns about this because the other employee had the same title as me. So I went to our new VP with my concerns and her answer to me with a big smile on her face said "Karen, as long as I am working here you will always be employed here at JFK" Now that I think of that moment I knew it wasn't true, she was just pacifying me...I knew it then but I did nothing about it. I still can't get over how they let me go, not even trying to give me a different position. That is what is so bothersome to me still. I could understand giving me a different position with a little less pay but to go to be unemployed is just wrong. I am a H.R person and I know how H.R Works, their motto is "H.R Can Do what ever they want" and I saw it for myself for many many years. To this day I believe me Director, VP,and even my co-workers could have found something else for me with in the HCA family. I was tossed out like a bad apple. But I know I am not a bad apple because that is one thing I have instilled in me, "Great Work Ethics" and that is something they can't take away from me. My father was so proud of me for this so I know I am doing well. This was instilled in me by my father and his father before him.

This whole experience has taught me so much. I learned who my friends really are, who really cares about me, and most of all who I can trust. I am very limited on who I trust now. I can't believe how many people at the hospital I knew and only a select few have kept in touch. I spoke to some of these people every single day of my life (Work Time Anyway). I feel so betrayed by that Hospital. I made my mark there and they just erase it like it was never there. They took my fellow co-worker as a replacement for me within a blink of the eye. This employee always had it out for me yet not one of my co-workers ever did anything about it, not one. If anything they became more friendly with her. I never told any of them this because stupid me did not want to hurt their feelings, how stupid am I? Ever since that certain employee came in to our department there has been changes, not good ones either, and not nice ones. Some of my co-workers were afraid of which she knew and enjoyed every single minute of it. Why did She do that? I guess because she could. I worked with this certain employee for a good couple of years, when she worked in the hospital it self her and I got along very well, she even ate lunch with us in the cafeteria once in a while. I could even go over to her office and sit and talk to her about any subject. Then she came over to our office and from then on is when she started treating me unfairly. I have my ideas as to what happen but I guess it just doesn't matter anymore. Why am I still dwelling on this,? Because I have so much time on my hands, I can't think of anything else then where I was, not where I am going. Hopefully that will change soon and then I can get into what ever "New Adventure" I get,.and this won't bother me anymore.

Bottom line here, I ended up trusting the wrong people. That is my worst trait about myself, I trust in too many people. I trust that they will watch out for me but Bottom Line you can only trust your self, you can only look out for yourself, and you always need to be aware of the "Back Stabbers" in life because they are the ones that win, I learned so much about my fellow co-workers and I am just going to leave it at that......... So I hope to write in my next blog soon that I have a New adventure in my life and I hope I can tell you all about it!!!