Packing up..UGH

The thought of packing up my home just makes me sick to my stomach. All the "STUFF" I have collected in the past 6 years is just so much. Never thinking it would come to this. I know I have plenty of time to do it because I have 90 days for the short sale to run it's course, then I can just do the next step which is handing in the Deed in lieu of Foreclosure...I am not happy about leaving my home but I am happy I was able to save my brother's credit as well as mine. I do plan on eventually owning a condo or something small and by doing it this way then I do have a future of doing that. The word "Foreclosure" can follow you forever if it wants to so I am glad I won't have that hanging of my head but more important it won't be on my brother Matthews credit...because yes, he does almost have a perfect score...

So the next couple of months will be hard, I will not be sending the money anymore as per the Mortgage company. So maybe I can save for a apartment or something in the time I have left. BUT we all know how well I am at saving..LOL

I will miss my house but honestly its for the best. I was living on the edge with the payment. If anything went wrong with the house I would have the money to fix it because of such a high payment. Also, its just me and Bailey in a 3 bedroom house..I don't need it...!! My dream is to just pack up and move back to NJ but we all know that once I got there I would miss the hell out of Ayden and Cassandra (Even though I hardly see them anymore) so I know that would  not work. I have a really good job here with Joyce and I need to work with what I have...for now!